Sunday, February 26, 2012


I am really struggling right now and ask for your prayers. It is not necessarily with my weight-loss journey, but something going on in my life -- mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I am conflicted with where I am right now in a couple of different situations in my life. I just don't know what to do or how to feel. I am frustrated with it all.  I'm not sure where to go from here because, frankly, I don't necessarily know where "here" is right now or where to even start. There's a lot going on in my mind and the environment around me. Honestly -- I'm confused. I'm discouraged. I'm conflicted. I'm an outsider. I hate feeling this way! I really need your prayers for God to show me His will, what I need to do, and to strengthen me.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Extra Push

It is no secret that the past few weeks have not been great for me. They have been a huge roller coaster ride, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. My life is a journey and my journey to weight-loss and health is a daily struggle. I've been this way all my life, it's hard to change habits. It's hard to change the way you think about food, how you eat, and your level of activity after doing it the same way for almost 29 years. It is tough and that's why I have brought you along on this journey. I want to share my ups and downs with you. This is hard to say/do, and not meaning this in a self-centered way - but I want everyone to see my struggles and the fight it takes to get it right. There is someone out there that needs to know that someone else is on the same journey or has been exactly where they are -- whether they read this today or 5 years down the road. Someone out there needs to know that it's okay to fail but you are not a failure unless you give up!

Along with the struggles, I want to share my victories! As I have blogged before, I completed a 5k on January 21st. I mentioned that day that I had lost a total of 24 inches since 9/11/12. Well, as of last night, that number is up to 28.75! In the midst of a challenging month, I have lost another 4.75 inches! This is the exact reason that it is essential to keep pushing. And when you don't think you have anything left in you, KEEP PUSHING! Trust me -- you'll be surprised -- the strength will come! One little victory will give you the reinforcement that you need to keep going. There's a country song by Rodney Atkins: If you're going through hell, keep on moving. Face that fire. Walk right through it. You might get out before the devil even knows you're there. It might seem like hell in the battles and struggles that you face, but before you know it you'll be on the other side wondering how in the world you made it through! Take one step at a time. It's a process -- physically and mentally -- but eventually we'll make it!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


Not many people know that I've grown up all my life without a father. He passed away when my mom was 6 months pregnant with me. Some may say "how can you miss what you never had?". The truth is I miss it every day. I miss it in a little girl as she hangs on to her daddy's leg. I miss it when a daddy plays in the floor with his little girl. I miss it when a teenager goes to her prom or on a date. I miss it when I graduated from high school and college I miss it when a daughter gets flowers from her daddy on Valentine's day. I miss it every single day.

I often wonder how my life would be different if my dad was still alive. I wonder if I would be living in SC. I wonder if I would be overweight. I wonder if my life would still have the difficulties I face today...

There is so much that runs through my mind when I start thinking about my dad and the life of a daughter with one vs. one without. Sometimes I wish I could just see him and talk to him...but for now I go to bed crying and wondering.........

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I Am Who I Am

My honest statement: My weight/health is what it is because I ate what I ate and didn't do what I should have done. I'm changing that now. I have been on this journey whole-heartedly since September 11, 2011. I kinda started before that, but that date is when I consciously made the decision to attack this thing full-force. That is the day I first starting point. One thing that I keep in my head is that "The only thing standing in the way of me is ME!"

This is a personal journey that only I can take. No one can do it for me. I have to be the one to change. I have to be the one to eat different. I have to be the one to get out and walk. I have to be the one to do the exercises. But even though this is a personal journey, it is SO beneficial to have someone walking with me....literally and figuratively. So I cannot even begin to tell you how much it means to have an accountability partner! If you're on a similar journey, I encourage you to get one if you don't already. I'll be glad to stand by you if you can't find one. It has made such a difference in my decisions and confidence. If it were not for Jessica and Leah, my 2 main partners, I can pretty much guarantee that I would have given up a long time ago!

This journey is HARD, it gets discouraging, I have failed -- but with people by my side, it's easier to get back up and keep going. They push me, support me, criticize me, encourage me....I am blessed to have them on this journey with me. I'm sure you're saying to yourself, "Criticize you??" YES, the provide me with criticisms that I wouldn't accept from anyone else.  One of my favorite quotes right now is this: Cherish the friend who tells you a harsh truth, wanting ten times more to tell you a loving lie. *Robert Brault* I am lucky to have them be truthful to me. Yes, it's hard sometimes, but I know they love me. I know this because they tell me the truth and don't beat around the bush with me or try to sugar-coat things. It's scary, but I know they're behind me 100% -- success or fail...and they push me so I don't fail!

It feels so good to finally get back on track with paying more attention to what I am eating and putting in my body and exercising. I'll admit, the past few weeks have not been great. But I can tell you why -- I didn't have any goals. I hadn't sat down, talked it out, and committedly decided what I would be working on. I have some set goals now though. They are:

  1. Eat out only 3 times/week.
  2. Eat less than 3 snacks/day.
  3. Exercise 4 times/week.
  4. Blog 4 times/week.
  5. Drink more water!

It is so important to have goals. And it takes a plan to achieve your goals. I encourage you to take some time, sit down, and map out your goals. It doesn't have to necessarily be for weight-loss, it could be for your career or just life in general. Just DO IT!!!!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012


I've been sitting here with my blog up ready to post, but am just not sure how to put into words what I'm feeling/thinking. I haven't felt that great today. I haven't logged my calories for a couple of days, so I feel guilty about that. I didn't go walk today or do any other workout, so I'm bummed about that. The more I think about it, the more I realize that the days I don't workout are the days I feel the worst!
"Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy."
*Legally Blonde*

I've come to the realization that working out keeps my mind on track. I feel like I'm actually doing something to change my life -- more accomplished. I've got to quit making excuses and letting things stop me from getting out there and doing what I'm supposed to do! I've got to do what makes me happy....and that's not food anymore! If I slack off on exercising, that's exactly where my mind goes. I'm starting to lose control and I cannot let that happen! So what I'm asking of you is this -- ASK me if I've worked out today. KEEP me accountable. Yes, I'm doing this for myself, but sometimes I just need that extra PUSH!

I did a devotion at a women's retreat a couple of years ago and my title was this: FOCUS. Faith Overcomes Circumstances and Undermines Satan! I have to stay focused. I cannot go back to my old way of living, eating, doing things. I have to keep moving forward no matter what tries to get in my way. I have to turn stumbling blocks into stepping stones. I have to keep going. I cannot let the best be behind me -- MY BEST is yet to come!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

I Dare You!

I was watching another video on YouTube of the song "New Season" and this was the preacher's preface to the song...

God is getting ready to tear the veil off the Heavenlies and what has been held up is getting ready to be released. The people that have been under are getting ready to come up over. Those that have been forgotten are gonna be remembered. The enemy has held back generations long enough, but God is about ready to give us a NEW season. A season of power! A season of prosperity! A season where what has been taken from you has got to be brought back to you. I dare you to praise God like you know that it's already here!

It's a new season. Are you claiming all that's yours??

Friday, February 3, 2012

New Season

Okay, so if you've read my blog from last week, then you know how frustrated I am with my job right now. Well, we've also been in a spontaneous revival at my church this week. I wasn't able to go Monday and Tuesday, but when I went Wednesday -- OMG! God knew I was going to be there and He knew exactly what I needed to hear because the evangelist preached right to me. Have you ever been there before? It's scary yet comforting at the same time -- to know that God is speaking to YOU and telling you exactly what you need to hear and do for exactly what is going on in your life at that specific moment! The preacher even started singing a song that I have found encouraging so many times before but haven't heard in a while....

I'm telling you, God moved in that service Wednesday night! God gave me the job I have right now, and I gave it back to him that night. He knows I can't handle all the drama and can only make it with his help. This is a just season and my NEW season is coming!! God has bigger and better for me! Satan doesn't like it either because today he attacked me at work so hard. I was literally singing this song at my desk....and God helped me make it through. I know it's not going to be easy waiting, but HE will help me through!

The devil's time is up, no longer can he bother me.
'Cause the controller of the universe He fathers me.
And it's transferable, your children's children will be free.
It's a new season.
If you don't know it now, you need to know it's Jubilee. 
Your debts at cancelled and your children walk in victory.
It's all available to you right now, just taste and see.
It's a new season!

It's a new season. It's a new day.
Fresh anointing, is flowing my way.
It's a season of power and prosperity.
It's a new season coming to me!

Thursday, February 2, 2012


I haven't had much of a chance to blog this week. It's been pretty busy with work, workouts, church, and such. I just wanted to let you know I'm still alive! We have had some great services at church this week and it's been late getting home. I just can't tell you how much I've needed these services and to feel God like I've felt him move the 2 nights I was able to go. God is so good, and if you don't know Him, I'd like to introduce you!


I have seen all of this in our services this week!

I AM A CHRISTIAN. I love the Lord with all my heart, soul, & mind. God has really blessed me more than I could ever imagine, but the truth is that Satan HATES me!! I face struggles & temptation every single day of my life; but no matter what happens, I still strive to do the will of God. Because I put my faith & trust in God, He has provided relief for me & my family time & time again! God never fails to comfort & remind me of His promise that “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5). There have been countless times that I did not deserve God’s grace & should not have been granted mercy. But He has granted me mercy & forgiveness, as well as goodness & grace -- all for the purpose of sharing it with those I meet along the path of life. Some days are better than others, but you always have to remember to keep pressing on! Keep praising HIM & He’ll never fail to bring you through the storm.